Wednesday, October 08, 2003

Wed
8
Oct
2003

It’s a Conspiracy

Current mood: bearmood — tired UTTERLY exhausted
I can't win, I swear. After I got from work today, I tried to take a nap. I think I slept about an hour until I was rudely awakened by a dog STANDING on me. I guess he needed to pee and I wouldn't wake up. Damned dog.

It was a good thing I decided not to wait around for that delivery guy to finish up yesterday. I was told that it took him over two hours to unload the truck (including the 20 minutes he spent on his cell phone). I have a strong feeling that guy isn't going to be employed very long.

Historical note: Californians voted to recall Gov. Gray Davis yesterday and elected Arnold Schwarzenegger as the state's new governor.

OK, I'm off to bed. Keep your fingers crossed that I don't pop awake at 3 am again.

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

Tue
7
Oct
2003

Whaaaaah!

Current mood: bearmood — tired exhausted
Why in the hell can't I get any sleep?! I am soooo freaking tired, yet when I go to bed, I can't stay alseep. I've gotten a sum total of about 7 hours of sleep in the last two nights. I even tried to take a nap yesterday afternoon and couldn't sleep. I don't want to resort to sleeping pills, but I can't take this much longer. This so totally sucks ass.

One a positive note, if I can't get any sleep, at least maybe I'll finally get the things done on this site that I want to do. I need to put a smiley hack on my entry page (like on the comments page), fix my archives, put a link to my photo gallery, do a design for this page. BTW, does anybody have some good directions or a link for putting collapsing inline comments in Movabletype. If not, I'll just check out Scriptygoddess or the support forums when I get home from work today. Thanks!

Well, guess I better get my butt off to school.

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Wed
24
Sep
2003

I Miss It!

I've been missing the strangest thing lately--playing bassoon. I want to play bassoon again, badly. Maybe it's been the classical music that my teacher played in my last class. Maybe it is that regretful feeling I've had about never really taking the bassoon thing seriously enough in college. Maybe I'm longing for my good old college days. Maybe it is that I want some sort of device that I can transfer my senior bassoon recital VHS to a DVD before I accidentally ruin the tape. Maybe it was intensified by the recent "Music Stand" catalog that came yesterday. I even spent the last half hour looking at bassoons for sale on eBay and realizing I can't spend that kind of money unless I win the lotto or find a really good paying job (a good bassoon costs several thousand dollars). *sigh*

Saturday, September 20, 2003

Sat
20
Sep
2003

Catching Up on Sleep

Current mood: tired bear exhausted
Hey, I'm still alive--more or less. Dad commented to me yesterday that I hadn't written on my site for over two weeks, so I figured I'd better post a little something.

As I've mentioned before, the class I was taking at school kicked my ass. I don't think there was a day in the last five weeks that I got an entire night's sleep. I think I averaged about 5 hours a night. Couple that with the stress of not getting any hours at work (and not making any money) and I've been a complete basket case. Well, the class ended yesterday. I stayed up the entire night to finish my final project. After class, I had lunch with Dad and then I went to work for a couple of hours and came straight home. Of course by then I was soooo tired that I couldn't sleep, so I sat like a zombie and watched stuff on my PVR for about three hours. I finally went to sleep about 8:30 last night and woke up at noon today. I still felt like total shit when I got up. I know you can't make up for weeks of sleep deprivation in one night.

I had a really great birthday, though. I've made some really great friends at school and they threw me a little party. We had cheesecake and cupcakes. YUM! The lady at 7-11 gave me a free refill for my coke. My butthead manager actually made some dough for me to make up for the weekend he screwed me when we went to Colorado Springs (he didn't even know it was my birthday). Later, Dad took me to Hopps for a steak dinner. YUM, again! We had Mike's and my annual party on the 7th--we always hold it the weekend between our birthdays since his is on the 5th and mine is on the 11th. I posted some pictures of the event here. Also, Marcus got me a new scanner the day before at the Apple Store. All in all, it was one of the best birthdays I've had in quite a while. I didn't even let the whole terrorist bombing anniversary thing get to me like I did the year before.

Well, there's more to say, but it's 1 a.m. and I'm getting sleepy. G'night.

Thursday, September 04, 2003

Thu
4
Sep
2003

What the Hell Am I Doing?

I've hit another brick wall. I'm doubting myself, my whole reason for being, what I truly want out of life. Why do I have one of these every so often? It's so frustrating.